Storms of Life

These last few weeks have been a challenge for me. Seems lots of trials were in store for me.

One of them was that an old friend came back into my life recently. I was overjoyed at getting reacquainted, but then an unfortunate misunderstanding happened and just as quickly I thought they were out again. I went from happy to distraught in one day.


I had woken up in a great mood-happy to have this friend back in my life but after the misunderstanding, I couldn't stop crying all day.

So, I did the only thing I know to do in these circumstances-put myself at the foot of the cross and worship.

Years ago when something depressed me or angered me, that was the last thing I felt like doing (and therefore I didn't do it!) Now it's the only thing I want to do. After steeping myself in His presence, I just don't want to leave! I put on some annointed worship music and immerse myself in His presence, which is filled with such glory, a lifting of burdens, and such deep peace that is like nothing else in this world. It almost feels like a guilty pleasure-I'm sure I get much more out of it than God does! I would stay there all day and night if I could, but I think my family might complain about not eating dinner or doing school. (Ok, the kids would never complain about that!)


One day I hope to have an entire room to myself to have quiet, privacy and a t.v. where I can put on worship videos and dwell in His presence for hours if I want to. One of the songs I love is from Hillsong called Still.

Still:

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand



When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God



Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust


I'm reminded of the eagle. He knows when a storm is coming. While he can't avoid the storm, he flies to a high place until the winds come. Then he uses the winds to push him higher and higher, above the storm, and then he rests, keeping his wings still.

Isaiah 40:31 says that "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint."

That's exactly where I want to be when depression threatens to overtake me, or as the bible calls it, "The spirit of heaviness"-I want to hide under the shelter of His wings. I want to be above the storm,  and know that even when the oceans and storms in my life are rising and thundering that I can find rest and peace in Him alone!!