I was going through some old journals from years ago. I've been in a spring cleaning mood for over a month now and have already gotten rid of a lot of things.
In those journals I found an entry I had written probably 12 years ago when it was a very hard time for me physically, emotionally and spiritually as well. In the entry I talked about me going to a friend's house for a prayer meeting. She, as was most of the group, was from Africa but she told me she was having a guest there, a man from Egypt who was a Christian prophet. I wasn't sure how I felt about that as I didn't really believe there were actually still prophets, or prophecy for that matter.
Anyway, this day had been a particularly brutal one for me and I didn't even want to go to her house anymore. Instead I had gone to the garage to weep my eyes out and travail before God. I was completely heartbroken. Amidst my body wrenching sobs I poured out my heart to God there in that garage. Afterwards I decided I should go to her house anyway, even though I REALLY didn't want to.
During/after the meeting this man began prophesying to a few people. That kind of thing freaked me out so I was totally fine if he wanted to skip me!! I actually tried to hide. Now how many people know you can't hide from God!
But alas, he didn't. (skip me that is) Imagine my shock when he started telling me exactly what I'd been pouring out my heart to God about, all the way across town just an hour ago! It was such a shock to realize God really DOES listen to our prayers, and He cares about our cares, and sometimes is so quick to answer! He told me many things about my life, from my childhood to adulthood. All were so true. God comforted me greatly, and gave me great hope, at exactly the time I needed it and felt I might go over the edge! I left that meeting a different person. God was bigger to me now.
So I got some surprises when I was reading it all again, most of which I'd forgotten. Everything this prophet had said was true, yet there is only one thing he told me, that has not come true yet, and this is something I had totally blocked out of my mind and forgotten about, because at the time, I remember thinking "Nooooo!" And this one thing is that one day I would serve God in another country. Now that shocked me reading that! Up until a few years ago I never had the desire to even go to other countries. I mean I've been to Canada and Mexico but that's it. I've traveled back and forth between both coasts quite a few times and saw such beauty that I didn't have the desire to ever leave my country, (yes, even to visit another one) because I realized while planning those trips that there was enough here in the U.S. to still see, and thought I'll never even be able to finish seeing all that I desire, let alone want to go to another country. But just in the last few years I've changed a lot. Starting about 4-5 years ago it's been on my heart almost constantly.
But serving God in another country? Me??? What would I do? God could or would actually use me in another country?? Right now I admit my thinking is small. "Well, maybe He will use me just to pray for someone or carry their groceries to their car. Maybe I will save their cat, high up in a tree or tell them everything they never wanted to know about chimps." If God wants me to do it then I suppose He will prepare my heart, but it's exciting to think about it because that is the only thing regarding the prophecy that hasn't come to fruition.
Prophecy doesn't freak me out anymore but I am careful because I've heard some people call themselves (or others call them) prophets that are false, and giving false prophecies, even damaging Christ's church. The Bible says to "test the spirits, because many false prophets have gone out into the world".
I haven't had many people prophecy over me since that first time. Maybe two or three, and one I am keeping in my heart because it is a future event that I believe will happen in my life, and God gave me a glimpse of it, to keep hope alive I suppose, until He deems fit to bring it to completion.
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